Sunday, March 24, 2013
Then there was the allergic reaction that never got address until the IT group wanted the loaner back. I realized I am over corporate life. There is no humanity there. It's time to move onto the next part of my life. My plans for retirement wasn't sitting in a chair in front of the TV, I do that nightly to try to remove the corporate day from my mind. It was to move onto a business of my own, the business changed a few times but it was something of mine, Something I controlled and something where people left in better spirits than when they came in. So at times, it was a restaurant, or a boutique but now it's a B&B. It has been for a while actually. I had found a great house in Bath NC with a deep water dock that could fit 4 boats. But Welcome got sold and I needed to move on. I looked at places in Greensboro and High Point when I lived there and had some possibilities. But then mom's and dad's health started to slide and I knew I needed to go back to NJ. So I put that desire on hold and did what needed to be done. Don't think I regret what I did, I don't. I reconnected with people I hadn't seen for a long time, I made new friends, and took a relationship to a different level. But it's coming to the time for me to take care of me. Because I can't expect anyone else to do that. I had thought Robert and I would be taking this on together, but that was not the future for us. We had gotten each other through many rough times but God or Fate decided he had been challenged enough or that I needed another challenge and he was gone. Now someone has come back into my life and I find myself on dangerous ground. He asked me at one point in a conversation, could you go back home again. I answered no not back to where you were but that a new chapter could be written. Robert and I walked out of each others lives several times, once because of his mom, once because I wanted more than he was willing to give but we always came back together. Life was better with him in mine and I think it was the same for him. I mean who would hang with someone who turned down 2 proposals and on the third, put a condition that was almost impossible for him to attain? But he did when I did just that. I knew new chapters could be written by old lovers and friends. But in saying that, the new chapter does build on the old and those old hurts need to be dealt with if they haven't been already. The relationship and trust needs to be rebuilt because, hopefully, you aren't the same person now that you were at 25. Or maybe you are and the other person need to decide if they are able to deal with that. Anyway, I don't know if by saying new chapters could be written I led him to believe that I want it to happen. I don't even know if that's what I want and what the chapters are to be. Is it just friendship or more? Then there is the issue that he's married , maybe unhappily, but still married. I'm not even sure what he wants, I initiated contact but we broke it off for various reasons and now he initiated it. Does he just need to talk to someone who is on his side, an outside observer or something else? Too much is unknown and I need to reign in my emotions, fantasies and imagination and deal with reality once I figure that out. Perhaps I need a good Gibbs smack to bring me back to my senses. I need to get back to my Sock Madness sock, Round 2 is on and one of 33 spots is mine. Here my progress so far. I need the rest of the foot and a second to match.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
So if they would do that, why am I surprised that he wouldn't tell me that he was going back home to India for three weeks? I guess I expect common courtesy from people. But I should know by his actions he isn't courteous. He is rude most of the time. I will probably have to pick up his work during his vacation because he hasn't done very much work at all. I also know that when I go on vacation, he will not be taking up the slack. After all when I was sick and there was a rush project, he waited until I came back to do anything. He said he had been working on it, but when I asked what he had started writing so I could take it out of the plan, he said he hadn't started writing. The rush project was to write about 35 documents. So he was working on it but hadn't written a word. All the source documents were provided so that wasn't an issue. Could someone explain how you could be working on a writing project without writing something? Perhaps he needed three days to figure that out, that there were 35 documents that needed to be written. Personally, I think he is very lazy and incompetent. He got a PhD from a school that needed the money, on someone else's dime and with others help, as he once admitted to me.
I did start the last sock for the Tour de Sock, the cabled brioche stitch one. I did some of one sock but I think I am going to take it out and perhaps do one for charity later. They will be a very warm sock and thick. I don't even know if they would fit under my hiking boots. I need some mindless knitting, so I started a plain stockinette sweater. I just want a little rest before I start the Ravellenic Games. I have plans to do three shawls during the games. Plus I do have a Kal going on with the Unique Sheep. I've done the first two clues so far.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
I have certain pet peeves. I have things that get to me. The biggest one is people who expect the world to drop things in their laps. People who do not want to work, who expect others to do the stuff they don't want to do. I work with a bunch of them. People who expect others to clean up their messes. People who sit and read the paper or bulletin boards on the Internet all day or are on the phones with their friends or family all day. They wonder why they aren't getting anywhere. Honestly they are lucky they stay employed. I think it's because the manager doesn't want to loose any more head count because then the powers that be may think they don't need the manager. I am a consultant. I'm not paid anywhere near what I was making before I left the workforce to take care of my parents before they died. But I give the job my best effort. I do the work I have as efficiently as possible. I check my work for accuracy and correct all my spelling errors. I check and recheck the numbers and make sure the written description matches the table or graph. I take pride in my work. I feel my work is a reflection of myself. It bugs me that someone will sit doing nothing all day and take a company's money for it. It bugs me that someone will take 2 weeks to do something it takes me 2 days to do and then do it so poorly, with spelling and grammatical errors. I mean spell check in Office isn't the end all but if it's telling you that a word is misspelled, it probably is. Especially when it isn't a highly technical term, when it's a commonly used word like supplement. I know the person will be highly surprised when he gets let go and I get kept. But when you sit on your ass doing crappy, slipshod work, screwing around for the most part, reading the paper or checking your bank account or perhaps stealing secrets from the company, you deserve to be fired. There are plenty of people who want to work and those that don't shouldn't get the chance. They should get exactly what they put out, nothing. The world doesn't owe anybody anything. You need to go and earn it. You shouldn't expect others to clean up after you and you certainly shouldn't go around saying how busy and overworked you are.
This is the end of the rant. I feel much better now. I did manage to squeak though the fourth round of Sock Madness on Ravelry. I thought this one would do me in. I have only tried mosaic knitting once before, at the first Unique Sheep Retreat. I did a small swatch of mosaic knitting in a class with Susan Pandorf. It was ugly, my tension was horrible and the swatch puckered. I had no hope that the socks would come out any better. But Voila, I did it and the socks look wonderful. See....
The only question is will they be too warm. I used two different sock yarns, Santa Fe by Aslan Yarns and Socka by Stahl. But the socks are almost double knit. The working yarn is carried behind the slipped stitches making a second layer. So, even though they fit me and I love the tonal red with the solid navy blue, these socks may go into the pile of hats and such for Pine Ridge Reservation. I think the Lakota people in North Dakota could make better use of them than I could here in NJ. Tomorrow the next pattern is coming. It has some colorwork as well. The spoiler showed a few stripes of contrast on the ribbing but I know there's some sneaky surprise waiting in the fifth round. I mean it's near the end, there will be two more rounds then the final one for the overall winner. I hope there's a bit of contrast and the rest is lace. I can do lace fast, I do lace well. Last year this fifth round was an illusion knitting pattern. It may have been garter but the chart to get the picture required you to concentrate. Otherwise, no picture. The teaser only showed the rib with the stripes. I wonder what the rest is like. I should know by 4PM tomorrow. We shall see what challenges await us, the 70 still left competing (5 x 14 is 70). I'll let you know when I either finish it or get knocked out.
Monday, April 2, 2012
I finished and moved to round 3. The afterthought heel does not fit me well. I had to add extra rows to get some heel depth and they still don't fit. But it fun to learn these new techniques and see what works for me and what doesn't. I can always reknit it and redo the heel to a flap and gusset. Since yesterday was April 1, April Fools, there were lots of little jokes on Ravelry. I had a Cat in the Hat hat on my Ravatar. There were the Emperor's Fingerless Gloves made from Rumplestilkin's Yarn. Then there was a contest looking for the sexiest knitter, the one who knits the sexiest, not looks the sexiest and knits. The in Sock Madness, Round 3 was announced. The supply list had 1,000 yds of lace weight in 5 different colors, a true indigo dye vat made with urine of pre-pubscent boys, 4 cabana/ kilt boys, 16 cable needles and much more. It fooled me at first until I started reading. Then I started laughing.
I am trying to finish at least one glove to show my massage therapist to see if it works for her. If it does, I may actually publish it on Rav. There isn't anything like it there. There are some elements but not all of them put together like I have on this glove. If I do, it will be my first published pattern. I've never liked mittens, and gloves make it hard to get change out, especially while driving. If you can flip the tops of your thumb and the the next two fingers, it could be done easily. She wants to be able to play her flute and still keep her hands warm. We will see it I figured it out and not have the tips get lost or in the way.
It's getting late and I think I will sign off. Nighty-night all.